================================================ Subject: Re: just curious about all this hype.... From: "cHiLlY" To: Date: Wed 16 May 2001 14:01:55 -0700 ================================================ andrew, i do not agree with what you wrote..because some of it need to live with creed..for instance with me..creed saved my life and i dont have a good life may i add (no one fell sorry for me i dont want that) they keep my sane...they saved my life..without them i would be 6 feet under ground.. ....the following is how creed saved my life.. CREED INSPIRED ME TO WRITE THIS EXPERIENCE.. ALMOST A SUDDEN DEATH THAT ALMOST TOOK PLACE IN MY LIFE...THANK YOU SCOTT STAPP..!! It was a warm fall day, September 23, 1999 to be exact. The day were all my fears, frustrations, and thoughts would come out. Not knowing what the future would bring to me, not until the fear struck. The denial devastated my body, heart, soul, and thoughts. The day my best friend Liz would leave this world to enter the heavens above. I can still remember her voice, and face clearly, after school that day. She wanted me to come with her so we could go to my house and chill out for a while.. I told her I had a ride home and for her to meet me at my house at 2:00 pm. The minutes passed.. Then the hours passed.. The sounds of the sirens suddenly jerked into my ears, ringing like a freight train. I blew the sound off not thinking of the possibility of Liz leaving me to reunite with god. Another hour passed. The phone rang.. All I heard was the sounds of hurt, frustration, and the crying of Liz's mother on the other end. Then the silence broke. Heidi Liz died Liz died Liz died.. The words repeated themselves into my head. I was in shock. The sirens I heard were Liz's departure from earth.. A few days after that horrible night, the "wake" had the biggest impact in my life.. Liz didn’t look like Liz she was different, but yet the same person. The denial was unbearable..This is the night when I suddenly turned to nothing but drugs, partying, depression, denial from my great loss, killing myself emotionally thinking it was my fault Liz is dead! I kept thinking if I would have went with Liz she wouldn't have had to come down that street and run into the tree as she did.. The days passed turning into months, months turning into September 23, 2000. 1 year of her death.. The anniversary.. September 23, 2000 is the day Creed entered my life and would change the future of my life! Changing my thoughts.. Changing who I was... It was about 4:30 pm when I thought of it.. When I took the gun from the closet and loaded one bullet since that’s all I would need..I wanted to join Liz..Wanted to depart from earth and join the sweet heavens above...The depression was to great for a single person to bare...The sounds of rock music ringing in my ears... I sat down upon my bed and held the shotgun to my precious head.. Listening to the words of the songs on the radio.. Asking myself that same question "What’s this life for??".. I didn’t know the answer to this question...Not until I listened to the lyrics of Creed-What’s this life for. I didn’t know of this band, song, the person in which would save my life that I did not yet know he would.... something told me to listen to the next song then end my precious life on this Earth..The radio then played "What’s this life for?"...I sat on my bed crying from a world of hurt..Knowing I had killed my only and true best friend.... Then this song was asking itself "What’s this life for"? The words rang in my head I continued to listen. The whole song impacted me until to the point I couldn’t stop thinking.."What am I doing" "It wasn't my fault" "God wanted her not me" "God wants me to live this life"......I then found out what my life was for..It is for the everyday people who live it with me...My Mother, Father, Brothers, Friends.... What would they think?? They would think what was I thinking about when I did pull the trigger.. What would bring me to do such a thing... Leaving this Earth to join the heavens above.. Leaving them so that they couldn’t Love and Care for me anymore..Because of Creed I opened up my eyes and realized I have a life...and mostly realized SUCICIDE ISNT THE WAY OUT! So this post is to my Idol’s.... the band named "CREED".. Thank you for your music, Thank you for you lyrics. Thank you for everything you give us fans without knowing it.... I didn’t know of you guys until September 23, 2000 and now I am a loyal fan.. I will never doubt you guys with the making of any music, I will always follow you with what ever you do...And my new dream is to meet all of you guys..Mostly Scott Stapp for he lived a trapped life also.... I only know this Thanks to VH1 behind the music..Plz if any of the members of Creed read this try to contact me and make my life-long dream become a reality!!!! Thank you for all you have done for me Scott I love you, and will follow you until my death..My departure from Earth when God wants me.. Your fan for a lifetime and beyond, Sincerely, Heidi Koch of Whitewater, Wisconsin IN LOVING MEMORY OF ELIZABETH SEPTEMBER 23, 1999 THE DAY MY LIFE CHANGED FOR THE WORST IN LASTING MEMORY ALWAYS OF THE DAY CREED SAVED MY LIFE SEPTEMBER 23, 2000 _______________________________________________________ Send a cool gift with your E-Card http://www.bluemountain.com/giftcenter/ To unsubscribe or change your preferences for the Creed-Discuss list, visit: http://www.winduplist.com/ls/discuss/form.asp