================================================ Subject: Re: I need Advice From: "Hashim Kabir" To: Date: Wed 11 Apr 2001 08:58:31 -0400 ================================================ gloria_martinez@INFOSEL.NET.MX writes: >Hi there: > >It's kind of difficult to give advice to someone you don't really know, >but >it's more difficult to take the advice from a total stranger so i'm gonna >tell you something about me first, don't get tired ok? >My father was an alcoholic, (the big mouth kind) and died from cancer >seven >years ago, my mom also died that year when a clog went to her brain, two >of >my brothers died from aids and my brother in law, who was one of the >kindest >persons I've ever met died also from cancer. So you see, at that time I >felt >anger and impotent, sad and lonely, and I started doing some crazy stuff, >drinking, going out with the wrong kind of people to places that you don't >want to know, and having very sick relations, and in one point the idea of >sucide crossed my mind, I looked myself in the mirror and I saw this sad >woman, wearing black clothes, swearing all the time, antisocial, and I >realized that I didn't want that anymore, I broke up with my so called >"friends", also with my boyfriend at that time, burned out my clothes and >decided to give a try to college after two years doing nothing at all, and >here I am, I'm not going to lie to you telling that I'm the happiest >person >alive, sometimes my "dark" side comes back, and some memories are just >embarrasing and uncomfortable, but I feel much better and alive now, with >more happy moments, and healty relations, i have a job, and even when I >feel >sometimes that void in my life, nothingness, I keep on giving life a >chance, >and for the time the chance has been worthwhile. This ain't no recipe, but >the only thing I can really tell you, I hope that you realize that you can >take control of your life, and turn it to another direction. >Sorry for the spelling, I haven't practiced my english well, u should be happy. u shouldn't do crazy stuff anyway because u might get arrest my cops. some people have a bad life and that why people is on drug, murderer, suicide, drunk, have sex with aids, gay people, and crackheads!!! u know what i mean.... now, i been seen u become happy but, i just don't u to get hurt by other CRACKHEAD PEOPLE THAT TRYIN TO KILL YA OR MURDERER U OR HAVE SEX OR WHATEVER!!!! OKAY. JUST BE CAREFUL!!!!! OKAY BYE ~Hashim Kabir~ CREED RULEZ!!!!! hkabir@bw.beachwood.k12.oh.us To unsubscribe or change your preferences for the Creed-Discuss list, visit: http://www.winduplist.com/ls/discuss/form.asp