================================================ Subject: Re: I need Advice From: "Gloria Martinez" To: Date: Wed 11 Apr 2001 00:42:21 -0500 ================================================ Hi there: It's kind of difficult to give advice to someone you don't really know, but it's more difficult to take the advice from a total stranger so i'm gonna tell you something about me first, don't get tired ok? My father was an alcoholic, (the big mouth kind) and died from cancer seven years ago, my mom also died that year when a clog went to her brain, two of my brothers died from aids and my brother in law, who was one of the kindest persons I've ever met died also from cancer. So you see, at that time I felt anger and impotent, sad and lonely, and I started doing some crazy stuff, drinking, going out with the wrong kind of people to places that you don't want to know, and having very sick relations, and in one point the idea of sucide crossed my mind, I looked myself in the mirror and I saw this sad woman, wearing black clothes, swearing all the time, antisocial, and I realized that I didn't want that anymore, I broke up with my so called "friends", also with my boyfriend at that time, burned out my clothes and decided to give a try to college after two years doing nothing at all, and here I am, I'm not going to lie to you telling that I'm the happiest person alive, sometimes my "dark" side comes back, and some memories are just embarrasing and uncomfortable, but I feel much better and alive now, with more happy moments, and healty relations, i have a job, and even when I feel sometimes that void in my life, nothingness, I keep on giving life a chance, and for the time the chance has been worthwhile. This ain't no recipe, but the only thing I can really tell you, I hope that you realize that you can take control of your life, and turn it to another direction. Sorry for the spelling, I haven't practiced my english From: "Secrets Kept" To: Sent: Tuesday, April 10, 2001 4:20 PM Subject: I need Advice > I am at a point in my life were i have no more usefulness. I thought of > joining the service just to be a part of something or taking my life just as > a means to an end. i havent plagued my life with drugs or alcohol but in > the sense have become addicted to other things like computer crimes and > destroying just about every vehicle i get. I dont know what to do, i know > that this lifestyle is wrong, im desperate for advice. > > "INSANE! Am i the only motherfucker with a brain? I'm hearing voices but > all they do is complain... how many times have wanted to kill everything and > everyone, say you'll do it but never will." ~ Slipknot > > To unsubscribe or change your preferences for the Creed-Discuss list, visit: > http://www.winduplist.com/ls/discuss/form.asp To unsubscribe or change your preferences for the Creed-Discuss list, visit: http://www.winduplist.com/ls/discuss/form.asp